A Good Person

What is a good person? Who is a good person?

Good is vague.

Language is a good means of communication right. Of understanding?

A good person is someone who understands you and who has your best interest in mind. Or at least, not a bad interest for you.

so a good person is someone who serves you or serves something that people want.

Serving is a skill, not a characteristic..?

Are there characteristics of a good person?

I personally think you can feel good versus bad. But can you actually.? I think their is a internal compass of your actions. But is there actually?

I know plenty of people that would call me good, and I know plenty of people that would call me bad. Is that the case for you too? Can you relate?

The longer I’ve been alive the longer Im starting to think there is no real good or bad. There just is. What does that mean really?

The philosopher Lao Tzu wrote something.

Jesus said some things.

The Buddha sat under a tree.

Birds sing.

The ocean waves.

Things just happen. Do we learn from them or do we ignore the message. Do we get stuck trying to figure it out or do we just go live our life.

Our life. Not my life.

I think thats a difference between a “good” versus a “bad” person. The mindset of our. Sharing everything and being kind to everything because, it is ours. The opposite of this is, well, hoarding, othering, separating… Well isn’t that life? Think of amebas in a petri dish or a pond. For life to happen there needs to be good and bad, there needs to be polarity.

What would happen if you sat under a tree, or fasted for 40 days, or turned the other cheek? What would happen if you gave up your selfish desire for everyone else or anyone else…. You serve everyone by serving yourself right? hmmmmmm I feel stuck in a loop……………………………. I think there is no real answer to this question. I think I’m tired, nooo just a headache. Im alive and I can’t change that. I can live. I want to live. So I have to suffer? cause there is a quote about that huh? Life is suffering by Ganhdi or something. HMMMMMM

Suffer to enjoy?

Enjoy the suffering?

Maybe there is some balance in that. Maybe we can find some balance in this life thing right. Maybe thats why Im sitting here on this laptop with a headache still typing away. It feels like mental suffering working through these ideas and concepts.

Im not trying to be good or bad. Im just trying to find a spot in this life that is relatively comfortable and enjoyable. I’m trying to help people from giving up, like I almost have in the past.

Maybe I am trying to be good. No I definitely am trying to not be bad. I don’t think I can’t not be. FRUSTRATING. …back on the loop..

I am what i am what i am. I am apart of life. So are you. Balance is apart of life. Life is balance. I like being a middle only son in my family. I like extreme happiness. It turns out i like what comes about after extreme sadness or discomfort. It turns out I could have made better decisions in my journey. It turns out turning pages and curving corners brings something new.

It’s your turn, then it’s my turn, and yes the world is turning. Thats what science tells us. You can feel it when u stare at the night sky(use your phone and take a timelapse). Thats why the sun rises in the east and sets in the west.

Turning and cycling. Transitions.

Im proud of me for working through this thought process when normally i would have deleted it and not posted it. It still feels incomplete and unfinished. To relate to balance. your always gonna fall out of balance. Andddddd your always in balance. So you don’t need a balance coach right?

Well Ill gladly be your coach if you’d like. It would be a dream of mine to be a coach for this. a dream to do it for free, a dream to help the entirety of the human race. but thats pretty big. I guess Ill start with me. I feel pretty small at times. But also inescapably large too.

Im okay with it all. Im okay not having the answers.

Im okay. Im really stoked on the idea that things will work out for me and for you and for our neighbors across the globe, and on and on and on. Im okay with the suffering and the war and the hate, even though I want to change it. I want to help. I want utopia. I want heaven on earth. I want everyone to feel loved.

I do want to be “good” but I know now that “bad” will always be apart of that….

Im sorry. Your welcome.

Much love. Time to go play in the rain between the gigantic yosemite granite walls. Maybe on them. Ill post a pic with this post later. Im gonna have to re read this one haha. WOW.

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I sat on this post for more than 2 weeks before looking at it again and deciding to post it.

It holds up. Im happy i re read it and fixed some spelling mistakes. Maybe I seem smarter now hahaha. Maybe you’ll be happier now or let go of some of your judgements on yourself.

I love you.

I love me, and I think what Im doing feels good.

good.

goodness gracious. Back in the loop… haha

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Enjoy and much much love. You are love, you are life. Go live it :)