What am I doing?

What feels right. What calls to me. The things that bring me and others value.

Im noticing loops, lessons, and cycles and I’m navigating them differently than I would have in the past.

Reading co star.

Learning about myself.
Writing and Reading

Yoga, Meditation, lots and lots of cold dips.

Right this second I’m just present. In flow as I watch myself pour words onto the screen.

In action, yet also doing nothing at all.

A very similar feeling to walking an easy highline.

Flow.

Im just trying to flow with the universe.

Sometimes you hit obstacles at a disorienting speed and theres nothing that can be done other than wait and keep on.

Throwing a fit and getting upset does nothing to that obstacle.

Be water.

Accept all.

Keep flowing.

Make space.

Fill space.

I’m Sitting in the Las Vegas airport after walking from the main strip. I met a nice 40 y/o man named Adam. He lost all his money and had to call a friend for money to get home to his wife and kids.

He was honest with me, sat down and talked. We related on both crashing motorcycles. I had a nice time before coming into the chaos of the airport

I got a nice window seat, set up my laptop and here I am, typing. Putting down thoughts, ideas, memories, whatever, to share with the world.

I have so much to share and give

Ive failed in many different ways, and Ive kept going, Ive failed and I’ll keep failing till I become the best version of myself I can possibly be.

Because of failing, I get to have my share of success too. I live a lush life making virtually no money.

I’ve learned to trust the universe and I know it’ll provide for me to do what I’m meant to do with my life.

I’ve become very spiritual over the years. Ive always been sensitive, I used to want to turn it off and feel nothing. I tried. many many times for yeeeaaarrrsss. But I realized how lucky I am to be able to tap into all of the feelings, frequencies, and energies that make up this experience I get to live. I’m so blessed and grateful to share it with all of you amazing people out there. I’ve isolated myself so much in the past and I want nothing more than to love everyone, bring kindness, gifts, food, experiences, and joy to each person out there. It’s been hard aligning my energy to get anywhere near that. I’ve been on a really long journey and I know I have a long way to go.

But.

I know I’m getting closer and closer. Learning the lessons I need to learn. Feeling all of the things. Crying in airports. Being me. Learning about me, understanding myself, and loving myself. I’ve come to accept and trust so much. I have more fun more often. I get to have a wide range of magical experiences.

What if I die tomorrow?

Well I hope every little thing I did added value to the world. I hope I made someone else’s time more enjoyable or meaningful.

So now I’m doing me. Im going to keep doing me. Thanks universe for letting me be me.