Cusco Day 2

Entry I wrote while traveling on busses from Mendoza, Argentina to Cusco, Peru:

In Arica

Heading to Tacna and going to Cusco

Necesito despacio por favor

No entiendo mucho

Mi pasaporte está con el conductor

Confiar

Esta una viaje importante

Yo quiero ir a la yoga course en Cusco

Primero voy a Tacna, después Puno or Cusco

I can learn, I can understand

I can grow, I can have fun

I can stop spending so much time on my phone. I calculated some numbers today.

15 hours this past week on my phone. 6 hours on my iPad. With that average I would spend 1092 hours a year looking at screens(my devices. That’s 45.5 days this year……

I’m thinking less than half of the time is valuable and productive… a lot of the time it’s to escape the current reality I’m in. Sometimes I just stare at my Home Screen waiting for something to happen.

If this average stayed true I would be on track to spend 1.24 years on my phone over the next 10 years.

This makes me think about the value of my time. It makes me think about my life. It makes me think about what I’m doing?

What am I doing?

I’m in South America traveling by myself to Peru.

Have I done all the things I wanted to do?

No. But mostly because I don’t fully know what I want. I’m guessing that distracting myself, escaping reality, and letting my phone use me instead of using it for a purpose is destructive on my mental health.

So what do I want?

To connect with myself, my health, be wealthy, share with the world, be myself instead of being what others or the world wants from me.

This is why I’m going to Peru for yoga teacher training. To connect with myself and give myself love and attention. To heal from my past wounds. To develop better balance and be able to stand strong on my two feet and head in a direction that is good for me. Do this each moment with all my actions. To be decisive, to choose my health and my life.

————- Now I’m sitting in a hostel after dinner. As I re-read this entry from 2 days ago it makes me think about self love and how I talk to myself. It makes me think about all the healing I’ve done and brought about in my life. It makes me think about my choices. It makes me happy to care about my life. Seeing seemingly endless journal entries, poems, reels, videos, etc. All this evidence of me trying to understand myself and share myself, because I love myself and I love the world and all beings in it.

I am loving awareness

I am loving, awareness

This mantra is from Baba Ram Dass and I have been using it a lot the past couple days.

All the work Ive done on my mind, and mindset has been so necessary. Discipline, love, challenges, and acceptance.

I’m alone in a Foreign country and I don’t feel that alone. I feel loved and I feel happy. Not all the time. Sometimes are really tough and sometimes I’m not okay.

But right now, doing the work, trying, attempting, and accepting makes me feel wonderful. Right now focusing on human connection(to myself and others) makes me feel really happy.

Thank you thank you thank you God-Universe-Love-Self-Humanness-Spirit-Mother Nature

Much love

My life maters and so does yours

I love me and also you

I hope you are doing well and have self love and love from others.